When I was a little girl I was taught at a young age that you don’t need a man to live or share this thing called “life” with. That emotions were nothing more than insecurities for all to see to lower your confidence levels and ruin any chance you have in the business world. That you are enough on your own controlling ever situation that comes your way, because lets be honest, you can’t get hurt if you expect nothing from anyone. Well after the past year and half I can honestly say that this couldn’t be more wrong.
Four and a half years ago I ran away from a relationship that wasn’t going anywhere to come back home to an incredible job opportunity as well as a reconnection with my high school best friend, who we shall call Mr. M. Little did I know about 4 months later I would meet another man unexpectedly at a sushi bar, by the name of Mr. Z, who is 12 years older than I, who ended up changing my life.
Now I am far from writer, a blogger, a Carrie Bradshaw, but I needed to do this for me to try to understand where I went so wrong. I mean was it all me? Was I so terrified to hurt one person that I ended up hurting all of us, for nothing? That would appear to be the justifiable answer to the question yet I don’t believe that its only that. Was I so focused on doing this thing called life alone that I don’t know how to share it with anyone expect my two children. Is it my pride that stood in the way or perhaps was it that I didn’t want people to look at me as a prize that was won or a trophy wife in the end of it all.
While I embark on my new journey which is loving two men at the same time and learning how to shake it, I am inviting others to help share stories about themselves and life adventures throughout the process. Although my life adventure on “love” or as my son calls it “My Dating Career” that sucks and needs all kinds of work, I’m putting out there for all to see and experience. I’m sure I will be critizied, judged, and ridiculed as to how you can really love 2 men at the same time but I’m ready because at this point I have nothing left to lose.
SO… Here goes nothing!
Welcome to Life! Welcome to Imperfect Love. Welcome to Perfect Love. Welcome to Escaping Reality. Welcome to a Modern Day Fairytale that may involve numberous trips to Disney but isn’t castles and princesses. And if you know me in real life.. Welcome to the Truth, The truth behind the confidence, the fear of being alone, the mindset, and the life changings that have been made to create this “life”.